Thursday, April 21, 2005
haha..2day officially start lesson..well..it was not so bad cos they go slow dis wk..but i tink when e lessons reali starts..it'll b more stressful le..its ok..im gonna study veri veri hard..yeah..i tink i fit in more 2 poly den jc..haha..though im havin a lil trouble understanding haha..but its ok i'll learn it soon..!! hee.. baby hope u'll understand..dun ever gif up..im always here..no matter wat..! i promise you..
dis mornin tot i was late..haha..its takes mi abt 10 mins 2 reach sch..juz tt muz oso wait 4 bus..sian..i rush like hell dis mornin..haha..but gd ting was in time..heex..den went 2 class..so far my teachers r alrite la..haha..they seem nice enough..but i realise those i met le n r ladies r all 'ms' haha..
i miss my baby dearest so much man..!! sigh..i love him so deeply..!! we muz b a stronger couple k shuai ge..? hee..dun ever gif up even if tings dun go our way..plx? no matter wat im always here by ur side..supporting u..plz gif mi tt chance to stay by ur side..yupx..I LOVE YOU SO DEARLY..!!
thinking of you @ 6:41 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2005
yest had a great day man..haha..mornin was half aslp..den heard dad told sis tt they bringing my cousin go c doc 4 his eyes..sigh..den i was upset le..cos he was suppose 2 come @ ard 10..i noe if i told him..he sure upset n ya..sigh..n it did happen..aft tt he refuse 2 reply my msges..was veri upset le..lata called him when my parents left..he said he was aslp..oh man..haha..but lata we ok le la..haha..he agreed 2 come in e aftnoon..haha..i asked mum if he can come..surprisingly she allowed..!! thx mum..reali..yupx..den he came..we played..@ night my aunt treat us 2 swenses..!! haha..cos it was my cousin bday ma..hee..not bad..haha..so nice leh..sigh..I MISS HIM SO BADLY NOW..!! sobx..we went hm separatly..cos my dad fetch my ah ma n uncle hm..den my aunt scared no space in my dad car so she offered 2 send baby to e mrt station..sobx..so sad leh act can squeeze de..i dun mind..oh well..i miss him more n more..
tml start sch le..muz study veri hard 2 prove 2 my parents le..sigh..i scared if he cant make it..he will like tt day..haix..den some more dis time..its harder 2 meet up..haix..im so afraid now..so damn afraid..tt he'll leave mi..anyway he tml gonna apply into another course which he prefer..hope he can make it into poly though..den can spend more time le..yeah..I LOVE YOU BABY DEAREST..ALWAYS WILL..I PROMISE..!! gif us a chance 2 prove 2 every1 k? dun lose hope..we can do it de..yupx..stay by my side..
on a positive side..when we miss each other more..our love grow stronger..heex..I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY..
4:14pm
went thru frdster..look @ my sec sch frdx blogs..made mi realised how much i missed my sec sch frdx..even those i used 2 dislike or not close wif..i miss them..as some were once my frdx..it made mi realise how stupid n childish i was in sec sch..even till sec4..i've always been a coward..running away fr reality..n probs n troubles..i nv reali faced my fears..esp my fears of my parents..sigh..tt day chat wif xw jie..tt day i felt diff..like we not as close le..sigh..mayb im tinkin 2 much again..oh well..its ok..she is more bz nowadays..cant blame..
i didnt noe if i wld like acct course..but i made my choice..i'll 2 live thru it..but no matter wat..as long as i have him..mayb im foolish..n well..naive..but deep inside i believe if we both wan it..we both can make it thru e obstacles we face..n b a stronger couple or even as a person..
thinking of you @ 11:44 AM
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
2day did a lot of tings..haha..went 4 medical checkup @ SATA..den went mjc 2 withdraw..den went nyp 2 settle my application stuff..yupx.. i made up my mind le..im gonna work veri hard cos there is no turnin back into jc le..im gonna prove 2 my parents.. esp my mum.. i reali hope dis time everyting will go smoothly for mi n him.. hope dis time he clear his tinkings n dun tink of silly stuff le..
to baby dearest: i will always wait 4 u..so please dun tink u r bad 4 mi den leave mi k? i'll suffer.. n u dun wan mi to suffer rite? so DUN LEAVE MY SIDE..!! huggies..!! i love you always no matter wat.. thx 4 eveyting.. DUN EVER GIF UP ON URSELF N US..!! let's prove it 2 every1 k? missin n tinkin of u always..
to mj frdx: sori i didnt say gd bye b4 leavin..i dun like e atmosphere of partin..*sound veri common?* hmm..i noe some sure tink i stupid de..haha..but its ok..i made my decision i'll work hard..gd luck 2 every1 wor..n do keep in touch..!! *smilex* stay happy every1..i'll miss everyting we did..
to parents: i noe i make u all worry esp mum..but plx let mi learn..mum, i noe u worry 4 mi u scared i'll suffer..but i noe wat im doin..i might regret *which i doubt* but i'll live wif it..i love him mum..we may b young n our future is not set cos we r still studyin..but i noe i can do it..i'll work hard..he'll work hard..we'll both prove 2 every1..!! u may tink im 2 young 2 understand..i'll live wif mistakes i made..yupx..
mon start sch le..haha..thur onwards muz start studyin veri hard le..i cant turn back e clock le..so baby..hope u'll understand mi..which u always do.. wah..such a long essay..haha..i miss every1 in mjc..esp those close 2 mi..but life goes..n we'll keep in touch..!! heex.. most impt-ly..I MISS MY BABY DEAREST SO BADLY..!! I LOVE YOU..!!
thinking of you @ 5:19 PM
Sunday, April 10, 2005
im startin 2 try 2 avoid my mum le..i so frustrated..y does she always haf 2 nag..? y cant she b like dad..ok..i admit i mayb doin wrong tings..conc on wrong tings..but he needs mi most now..i cant juz leave him when he is @ his lowest rite..?
argh..!! mayb i made a wrong decision..mayb i was nv ready..i veri stress..wat shld i do?!
wateva..talk abt happy tings ba..yest went out wif him..thank you baby for lettin mi accompany u yest..den went watch the pacifier..haha..quite funny..bt e story is nice..hee..den aft tt went home..asked dad if he could join us 4 dinner..he allow..!! hee..so happy..well..i believe my mum had lots 2 say..she kept sayin dun go 2 fast but she dun noe we already so long..i noe im in e wrong..mayb i'll regret someday..but i will haf 2 live wif it..n i will..but i dun regret lovin him.. he may hurt mi but it's ok..he do say sori n make it up.. anyway aft dinner yest we went temple mum prayed 4 our fam..i pei him pray hope his appeal tml can get thru..yupx..
GOD..plz gif him another chance..i believe he will change in his studies..he change a lot since our last quarrel..esp in his temper..plz..we may not b a strong believer in you..im not sure abt him but i believe you wun let ur children suffer..i guess we all haf 2 learn abt life..n sufferin is part of it..but plz gif him another chance..thank you..it means a lot to us..gif him another chance to prove himself..i will try 2 push him harder..thank you..
baby..no matter how long it takes for u 2 succeed..i'll wait..but please let mi stay by ur side supportin you..i'll always stand by you..i love you always...
thinking of you @ 10:46 AM
Monday, April 04, 2005
k..2day had veri veri long break btwn lecture sia..haha..sch till 4.15 but onli 3lectures..sian..aft tt i pei yu ting cos her track meet 5 start den she ask mi pei..i nth do den baby didnt come so i agree lo..heex..den walk to 88 bus stop alone..sigh..nvm la..haha..thur n fri gt baby pei..heex..
jc life reali damn stress sia..or issit cos its mj? haha..heard they pretty strict sia..sigh..den im still so blur wif all my sub..sia la..like tt hw can i promote yr2..sian..nvm..yupx..
econs reali veri confusin leh..chem leh..i get a lil la..haha..den maths leh..can say totally lost wif a.p n g.p haha..sigh..den a lot of tys 2 buy haven buy yet..haha..econs textbook veri ex leh.. $38 amelia dar n xin kor say their jc no need econ textbook de..den i cant borrow..sian..dun wan waste $$ haha..sian..oh well..
my frdx in mjc r GREAT ppl..haha..yeah.. shall end here..heex..
i miss my baby extremely much..!! we'll b 2gether 1314...!!
thinking of you @ 6:38 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
ok..mjc isn't tt bad..bt i startin 2 dun like jc life..reali veri difficult n chim..haha..mayb cos 1st 3mths i was nt in any jc ba..bt den..haix..i dun noe..bt anyway i'll haf 2 live wif it...yupx..
made new frdx..haha..e orientation was pretty fun bt veri tirin 2 run fr 1 place 2 another esp when i dun excercise..hahaha..bt well..my OG was okok la..haha..noe my frdx fr there..hee..YU TING..SOCK LING..SU TING..LAY HIANG..ANDES..DING QIANG..FRANCO.. DHARMA..BERNICE..JAKE..JAI HAO..BRANDON..SHARON..SHENA..MAG..DEN OTHER OGL CANT REM E NAMES.. gt so many..haha..yupx hmm..mjc is ok la..bt e sch damn strict man..heard last yr a lot retain..oh well..
dis few days baby dearest come sch fetch mi..haha..thx baby..den he stay 4 dinner wah so nice leh..haha..yupx..hmm..thx baby 4 changing 4 mi..yupx..n thx 4 stayin by my side always.. sori 4 every mistake i did.. I LOVE YOU 1314...!!!
now frdster oso gt blog..haha..den i set up 1..haha..bt i guess i'll update here more.. hahahaha..take care every!! oh ya..HAPPY EARLY 19TH WEDDING ANNI 2 my parents..!! hee
thinking of you @ 4:36 PM